I showed you this one today! And I know you’ll read this too, and I’m not sure if I should send the letter in the mail, because if you don’t want to wait I have it typed up and I could just show you now. Half of it is probably nonsense because I was a bit upset, but I thought maybe it was something you needed to know. 

I’m so sorry that I betrayed you, I hate myself for it and I understand why you did too. When you said you didn’t know if you loved me, I think my whole world just crashed within a millisecond and I didn’t know what to do, I couldn’t breathe properly I’m pretty sure I had a panic attack but idk. Then you told me you loved me and I was so overwhelmed with everything I didn’t even know what I was crying about anymore, I just knew that I was crying and it wasn’t going to stop anytime soon. I am so so so so sorry that I broke your trust, I’d do anything to get it back, I know it might take a while but it’s worth everything if you can trust me again. You’re everything to me Dean, you really are everything and it’s not an understatement. I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you times infinity and more.

Tonight I’m going to wait for you to get back from work, but it’s a good kind of  wait tonight because I know you love me and you know I love you and I feel kind of happy and I wish you were back already. 

I wish I never told her, I am really so so so sorry :-( I love you.